Remembering A Very Special Girl... May 2007 / Christie Schraufnagel (Friend)Read >>
Remembering A Very Special Girl... May 2007 / Christie Schraufnagel (Friend)
It was two years ago that Miranda came to stay with me every day while her Mom and Dad were at work. Miranda was unable to attend school at this point and could not be left alone because of the seizures she was having. I really did not know what to expect and I was a little nervous about what to say or not to say to her. I didn't want to say anything that might upset her, and I was unsure of how open she would be with me about everything to do with her health. Well, all of my concerns were gone within 5 minutes of Miranda's arrival. Miranda and I sat down on the sofa together to get to know each other a little bit, and she promptly yanked her hat right off of her head. This exposed her shaved and burned (from the radiation) head to me. I think she was testing me to see if I could handle seeing her head that way. When she realized that it wasn't shocking to me to see her that way, she smiled and starting talking to me and really seemed to feel comfortable with me. I know it was a relief to both of us to have that comfort level right from the start. Miranda was the type of person that you love instantly. It only took a moment to know that my life would be changed profoundly by Miranda. In spite of everything that she was going through, she was still so happy and full of life. Not once did she ever feel sorry for herself. She always had hope and continued planning and thinking about her future. This, of course, made me feel so hopeful for her future too. That sweet smile that she brought to my home every day is with me, still today. Miranda taught all of us to have more compassion. She taught us to live life to the fullest and to always be hopeful about the future. That is how I live my life today, I never take even one day for granted anymore. My family and I are so blessed to have had Miranda in our lives. We feel honored to have been given that time with her. She will always be in our hearts and the memories of her are something that we truly cherish. Rest in Peace Sweet Angel...
Slowly Healing but Missing So Very Much / Nancy Carusone (Mom)Read >>
Slowly Healing but Missing So Very Much / Nancy Carusone (Mom)
We are slowly healing but I am missing so much. I see all the girls in the malls that are the age Miranda would be now and I realize how much I have lost and how much I will never know. It still hurts so very much.
I know with all the improvements we have done around our home that Miranda would have loved everything and she would be begging to swim in the pool once the water warmed up.
I miss running around to get her to practices for cheerleading, power tumbling, Girl Scouts, softball, etc. I know she would have been cheering at her middle school. She wanted that very much and was so excited about the prospect of starting 7th grade. I will be forever grateful for the lovely memorial page her middle school put in the yearbook for what was her 7th grade year.
Sometimes I think if she will still here, maybe our son would be more out there and he'd do more. Maybe he would have had a girlfriend this year, maybe he would have asked a girl to prom and gotten more involved in his school. I know I am overthinking things. Adam is how he is and I can't change that. I just wanted to do a lot with him too, if he would have allowed that. He is my artistic child and not my social butterfly.
Now Adam is going to be graduating from high school and I wonder how much longer he will be around. I know he will be here while attending college but one of these days the maturity will kick in and he'll be out hanging with friends more. At least he is going to movies with them.
We will never know the joy of Miranda becoming a young woman, first real boyfriend, dating, prom, first love, breakups, winning awards, learning to drive, going to college, getting engaged, married, having children of her own and spoiling those grandchildren.
Life goes on but I miss you so very much Miranda. I love you so much and carry you with me always.
Cancer/ Marguerite Ward Mom To Angel Brandi (Angel Mom too )Read >>
Cancer/ Marguerite Ward Mom To Angel Brandi (Angel Mom too )
We share a common bond......Glioblastoma brain cancer took both our girls much too young. Your Miranda was a beautiful young lady. My Brandi's first year anniversary will be on Saturday. Last Friday I walked the halls of M. D. Anderson just crying and remembering all our times there. It was our comfort but it also was our nightmare to go there once Brandi was diagnosed. Because of their treatments, Brandi was given an extra year and a half of life. It seems they lose more battles with this type of cancer than they win but I want to continue to encourage all the doctors who treated Brandi to continue looking for that cure or at least something that can control the aggressive evil of this type cancer.
Brandi's MRI on Jan 2, 2006 showed no growth. By January 17th the MRI showed significant growth. On February 15th there was explosive growth and on February 17th she was gone. During the two years she fought this dreadful monster we always knew that might be a chance she would pass on but it happened so fast without much warning. Now a year later.....it seems like just yesterday yet it seems like forever since I last saw her. I miss her with every breath I take.
Thinking of all cancer patients, especially the children and young adults. They are our future and have so much promise for the future. This evil monster known as cancer took them to Heaven much too young. The only comfort I have is that they are no longer hurting and are enjoying the majesty of Heaven. My faith gives me hope that one day we will be reunited. God Bless you all.
In my thoughts and prayers / Cherrei Mom To Angel Dusttin Duncan Read >>
In my thoughts and prayers / Cherrei Mom To Angel Dusttin Duncan
I came across a posting in the forums. I am so sorry for your loss of beautiful Miranda. I don't have the words, as i know it is such pain. I send lot of hugs! I lost my little boy from an unexpected complication, he was diagnosed with leukemia four months prior to that..
Miranda, i send you big hugs! Please hug my Dusttin for me!
Courage/ Guy (Step Dad )
I recently went through some issues myself that involved surgery and testing and was able to draw on Miranda's strength. It's hard to whine about things when you have seen the courage of a 12 year old going through what she did. Thankyou Miranda for being the way you were.
Holidays are over / Guy (Step dad )
The holidays are over and they still seem to be hollow. Two years without Miranda smiling or fawning over presents. It has not gotten any easier, there is still a pain with every passing event that she is not with us. We will always remember her. Close
Missing You / Carla Hannibal (Another Grieving Mom )
Miranda I am praying for your Mom and family. I know how much it hurts and I know how much she misses you. I miss my boy too. His name was Rory Adams and not a day goes by that I don't think of him. I figure you guys are in heaven playing ball and that's ok. It's just that we miss you all so terribly it hard to go on some time. You brought such joy into our lives -you were our hopes for tomorrow. Now we are forced to live on without you. We will never know what our grandchildren would look like or what kind of mates you would have chosen. Miranda and Rory look down on us and watch over us as you rest in the bosum of our Lord. Rest in peace precious children, no more pain and no more sorrow for you ...until we see you again in heaven you will forever remain in our hearts. Much love to the both of you. Grieving Mom of Rory Adams. http://rory-adams.memory-of.com Close
An Angel for an Angel / Pauline +. Diana Of Angel Norma Starkey (passer-by)Read >>
An Angel for an Angel / Pauline +. Diana Of Angel Norma Starkey (passer-by)
We are so sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter. Are thoughts and prayers are with you all. God Bless. xx
Remembering Miranda / Marilyn Barnes Rachel's Mom Read >>
Remembering Miranda / Marilyn Barnes Rachel's Mom
Your precious Miranda is a beautiful child whose faith, courage, and strength should be an example for everyone. A child should never have to endure such a battle. My heart goes out to you.
I guess I feel connected to you because I also lost my daughter to cancer. She was 22 years old and it has been one year and one month today since she left us.
I know there are no words that can ease the pain you feel. It just isn't supposed to be this way. But I truly believe that your precious child is enjoying all that is good and perfect and that she will do so eternally. She had such an awesome pupose in her short life and she fulfilled it completely. May she always be a light to all who know and love her. May God bless you. Close
It hardly seems possible that a year has gone by since Miranda slipped away from us. I still have a hard time understanding why God decided it was time to take her. She loved life so much and she did so much in the 12 years that she was with us and I know she wanted to do so much more. I wanted that for her.
I cant believe I will never see her grow up, never see her fall in love, never get married and have children of her own.
I see her pictures hanging in the hallway and I miss her so much. I want so much to hold her, hear her laughter, see her smile and feel the joy of life she had so much of. She brought so much love with her. I miss that. I feel lost.
I love you Miranda. We miss you so very, very much.
My Heart goes out to you / Georgina Clarke (Passer by )Read >>
My Heart goes out to you / Georgina Clarke (Passer by )
What a beautiful girl you are Miranda.
Miranda's family im so sorry for the loss of your precious daughter.
Cancer is a wicked dissease, and these little children are so brave, they have to put up with lots of treatment with horrid side effects, yet they never complaine. My holly was the same age as Miranda when she to passed away from cancer (Ewings Sarcoma).
My darling Miranda, You would have been 13 today and it would have been a large milestone for you. You were starting to blossom when you became sick and I had so much fun going shopping for bras, talking to you about boys and watching you giggle. You had such a love for life and people and a very giving soul. Your smile lit up a room. I miss you so much. I love you my precious daughter.
Each day I wonder how I wake up and go on without you here beside us. Life isn't fair and I know we were very privileged to have you with us for the 12 years you were allowed to be a part of our lives but I carry you in my heart always and will never stop loving you.
Written by Ram Dass, April 2006, New Mexico / Ram Dass Read >>
Written by Ram Dass, April 2006, New Mexico / Ram Dass
This was written by a stranger to us who knows Guy's brother Henry and his wife, Michelle. We received it in April 2006. They live in Rio Rancho, NM.
Dear Nancy and Guy:
Miranda finished her work on Earth and left the stage in a manner that leaves those of us left behind with a cry of agony in our hearts, as the fragile thread of our faith is dealth with so violently. Is anyone strong enough to stay conscious through such teaching as you are receiving? Probably very few. And even they would only have a whisper of equanimity and peace amidst the screaming trumpets of their rage, grief, horror, and desolation.
I can't assuage your pain with any words, nor should I, your pain is Miranda's legacy to you. Not that she or I would inflict such pain by choice, but there it is. And it must burn its purifying way to completion. For something in you dies when you bear the unbearable, and it is only in that dark night of the soul that you are prepared to see as God sees, and to love as God loves.
Now is the time to let your grief find expression--no false strength. Now is the time to sit quietly and speak to Miranda, thank her for being with you these few years, and encourage her to go on with whatever her work is, knowing that you will grow in compassion and wisdome from this experience. In my heart, I know that you and she will meet again and again, and recognize the many ways in which you have known each other. And when you meet you will know, in a flash, what not it is not given to you to know: Why this had to be the way it was.
Our rational minds can never understand what has happened, but our hearts--if we keep them open to God--will find their own intuitive way. Miranda came through you to do her work on Earth, which includes her manner of death. Now her soul is free, and the love that you can share with her is invulnearble to the winds of changing time and space. In that deep love, include me.
Heart felt condolences / Jen Paynter
I'm deeply saddened when I think of the tremendous loss that is no doubt felt by the absence of this beautiful little girl. I must say tho, from the looks of her photo album, she indeed lead a very full, albeit brief life. It is easy to see the love of her family for her & of her for her family. I look forward to meeting Miss Miranda one day when I get to Heaven. I pray her family is comforted in the knowledge that she is no longer in pain & that her poor, sick body has been restored. God bless you all. Close
Dan F. Long 2006 Yearbook Memorial Page / Nancy Carusone (Mom)Read >>
Dan F. Long 2006 Yearbook Memorial Page / Nancy Carusone (Mom)
Below is the tribute to Miranda placed in the 2006 yearbook. Miranda would have been finishing up 7th grade on May 25, 2006. If you have a problem seeing the picture on this page, please scroll over to the continue link and it will show up for you on the next page. Thanks.
It was a very wonderful gesture that they provided books to us and we loved all the signatures and written words in the book. This is something we will treasure forever.